Is the pregnancy going too slow or too fast? I’m not entirely sure.
I seem to be contradicting myself a lot lately. Only earlier this week, I was lamenting how slow the second trimester seems to be going. It seemed interminable on Monday. But by Wednesday the birth appeared to be looming all too soon as I tried to figure out when I wanted to go on maternity leave, how long I can afford to be on maternity leave and how on earth I am going to manage with four children and work. Actually the work part is the easy bit, except for organising and paying for childcare. Having done it with three, adding one more to the mix shouldn’t be so bad, but it’s the sleepless bit and not getting any chance to catch up which is beginning to cast a larger shadow. I had thought how marvellously I had "planned" the whole thing so that I could have the summer holidays off and sort out the summer childcare nightmare, but I am thinking now that having to entertain four children, one of whom is not sleeping [my experience of the first six months with the other three is of very little sleep. I have heard a lot about other mothers who have children who sleep the whole night by month two, but I have never ever experienced it], could be hard work.